Monday, December 31, 2007

Happy Birthday, Dear!!

missing u.

Happy Birthday, dear! muacksss~ i ve a great day today since we havent meet for nearly 1 month le. thanks for everythin. a great bf u are. bravo!! 31st dec. cool date. haha. after birthday, bid farewell to 2007, welcome 2008 with great dreams and hopes! cool!

Alvin and the chipmunks
. nice movie. i like de fatty chubby Theodore.. damn cute de. wahaha. and ya.. my bedtime partners from 7 cutie pies now added until 9 of them. =) thanks dear. for that 'u n me'! ;)

btw, me and jie plan to countdown in front of the mirror so that 2 of us can bcome 4 of us. haha. more ppl countdown ma.. =.=


happy 2008 everyone!
may our dreams come true. may we live healthy and happily. may everyone be blessed! lead a blissful life!! =)


xoxo.

something special for my lurve one. =)

what would i want to giv for my dear bf as bday present?!.. thought of this for few weeks le. trying to search for sumthin to giv.. bt ntg really capture my attention. neither in Japan nor Msia. duh. this is among the hardest thing to do. lol. *erhem* thanks to SUMONE who inspire me of doing this very special present. ur suggestion, well thanks, i appreciate a lot bt i didn't really use 'em. still, U are the most supportive heng dai. =)

my plan. design a card?.. nah.. nt actually a card. an a4 size cardboard. ytd.. hmm.. woke up in the afternoon.. then start to find out my design tools and kits. coz quite a long time didn't do all these designing stuff. lazy. lol. then i found out that.. my.. my.. my.. dear MUM asked my maid to throw all those very-precious-art-paper which i ve collect more than 5 years. gosh.. i go like wth.. then i started to find all over the hse for nice, recyclable papers. hmm.. not bad not bad.. i still can collect many different kind of them. after all these.. almost 3.30pm le. 4.30pm i hv to attend a party. so i try to draft out what i want. but things juz went nt tat gud. i juz cant draw what i thought of on the paper. grr..


still nt bad to hve all these found from my table, cupboard, storeroom, studyroom, wardrobe and more.. got shoestring, paper bag, magazine, art paper, stickers, strings, rope, aluminium foil, cloths, present paper etc. proud i make use of every single recycle thingy. =)

then terpaksa stop everythin to attend tat so-call party.

when i reached home it's edi bout 12am. then after finished my mum's thing, bath, remove my nailcolour, i start evythin again. draft, think, draw, throw, draw again, throw again, cut, throw again, draft again, cut again, paste, throw again. these repeated and repeated. until i finally realise.. gosh.. no time le.. 4am in the morning. stut. then try to finalise everythin and do in the easiest way. collage.


this is what i 1st plan.. draft is easier than designing de actual one. really.











still got mood to take pic. lol. i wish i could juz send him this. lol. me in the frame. wahaha.. =.=








at 5.30am today.... *drum roll* Ta-Daa~~~~

this my masterpiece!!
although it didn't look like what's playing in my mind. bt. hmm. evythin is from heart. it's memorable. it's unique. it's the only one, from me. =)

see the big pink heart.. it's made from shoestring. lol. the 2 red A's is from my jie's leftover. the brown papers is from paper bag. the U+Me is fromm mayday's album's photo. the background is made fr aluminium foil, thin ropes and colour papers.

it's whole nite's effort. althou a bit last minute, exhausted. bt contented. 1st time, for my lurve one. hee.. =)

xoxo.

Saturday, December 29, 2007

sleeping beauty. er... lazy piggy ba..

sleeping beauty. lol. kononnya.. jie so wu liao.. but still this photo is precious enuf to reflect my very reality life. i sleep deadly.. don't ever kacau me when i'm sleeping or u will mayb get a punch or kick. lol. n.. i can die without phone. lol. so most of the time my phone sleeps with me. and hmm.. dis nt my bed so cant even spot a bear bear.


my bedtime companions har.. let me count count 1st.. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7.. 7 of them. stitch the koala, baby koala which still remain anonymous, mashmallow the mashimaro, dolly the sheep, muffin the xmas bear, honey the classic bear, and a reddish devil.



yea yea.. feel so bliss when i'm in my cozy cozy bed. lol.
xoxo.

Ramly Burger Ramly Burger!!

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hey guys... dis video clip damn chun!! so msian ler.. ramly burger ramly burger.. i can sing oso.. lol.. feel like getting a burger now.. haha...

xoxo.

the random post.

whatwouldlifebewithoutu?

yea. same as meifong, kinda lazy to update blog le. lol. geminis are like that. hangat-hangat tahi ayam?.. bingo!

i wanted to update my blog with Japan's bits and pieces. but 1st, i haven't collect all missing photos from friends. 2nd, there are too many photos until i don't know where to start. 3rd, i wrote my diary everyday in Japan in my PDA but i couldn't find my USB cable so i can't transfer all those stuff into PC so i can't upload them here so i'm lazy to write everything again. conclusion, i'm still lazy to do anything. friends out there, sorry sorry sorry. i will update everythin in a short while. so don't keep nudging me for photos le. thanks.

To Do List
  • write MeiKei's report and email it to Dr Ahmadyar. (i shld hv finish this last week. aizs)
  • decide what course to pursue in coll bfore 3rd Jan. (mufy? adp? gosh!)
  • finish up all those vr vr ma fan and mountains-like Eduwis paper work. (still got bout 7 workbook to type?... hmm.. almost finish i think..)
  • design birthday cards. dec birthday babe. =)
  • upload Japan's photo. (someone, i nit help!!)
  • email to okaasan. yea yea. email photos.
  • update msn messenger Jenesys list. (so that i can get all photos i need)
  • help Pang Yang to think bout 'sumthing'. (ask me personally if u really want to know. XD)
  • go for hair treatment.
  • shop for new year clothes.
  • LOSE WEIGHT before another person says i'm getting FATTER. (47kg to 44kg?.. nt tat easy k)
  • go for optical check-up.
  • use all ways to change my brand new laptop from UBUNTU to WINDOWS. (yay! my laptop ler..)
  • clean up my messy table.

duh. lotsa things to do huh. sien sien sien. i wonder if i have a chance to just doing nthing for the whole day, staring blank. everyone thought i have great time relaxing in Japan. hey. i have to get up EVERYDAY in the early morning. the schedule was so rush. so i'm still tired. lol.


-goodluckdearforyourundangexam-

xoxo.

Monday, December 24, 2007

The 2nd Silent Night.

xmas eve. no turkey, no christmas tree, no presents, no candy, no chime, no big huge sock, nothing. i'm not a christian, but i used to celebrate xmas every year. but 2day is de 2nd year, i spend my xmas eve silently. last year, i was in ward, single bedroom ward. kena malaria that time, stucked in hospital when everyone celebrating xmas eve, alone. countdown alone. like dis year. but dis year better.. coz i countdown in front of mirror. haha. lame.

Happy Xmas everyone!
dis xmas tree har.. in tokyo de..
bside the busy busy t-junction..
mayb nt much people realize it..
in such blinky bz big city..
it just capture my attention when
i'm waiting to cross the road.
chun ler.. but that big red and blue bag, aizs..
i think is TB de.. buat kacau aje.. lol..
merry xmas :)
xoxo.

Saturday, December 22, 2007

the returnee.

i'm back!

yea. lots of things to post.. bt now nt in de mood. so post next time. lol.

i've changed?!.. i doubt. bt i hope i'm not. 2 weeks is long enough to change evything. but i missed the time before 2 weeks. i hope things to be the same, unchanged. i hope bonds will get stronger, nt shatter in pieces. i hope i hope...

i hope for what i hoped.

xoxo.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

countdown-ing.

hmm. actually. anti-countdown. cause it makes me more nervous, more dunno-what-to-do. aizs. but since MZ counting down.. so i company him. lol. left 1 day b4 i leave for Japan. opps. is more than 1 day la. cause i'm leaving at night. -.- right now, still havent go for dental checkup, still havent go for mumps injection, still havent done my presentation preparation, still havent pack my 2weeks luggage. so, overall, i'm out of time but everything still undone. aizs. still no mood for leaving my Tanah Air for 2 weeks. i scare cold de. but Japan is damn cold now. i scare alone de. but i will be leaving alone. bless me i can talk calm and fluently in front of all strangers. cause i'm kinda shy in public. lol. my 'out-going' gonna stop working when i have problem in communication.. i mean do they really know Malaysian's English?!... with all rojak language?.. they know walao-eh? they know beh tahan?.. they know 'NO WAIT'???... guess Malaysia will be better. yeap. i will be so so more talkative when i'm back to Malaysia, with all those campuraduk language. malay, chinese, english, japanese, hokkien, cantonese................ friends, talk more with me that time har.. Malaysia,.... still the best!

Share with me your thoughts please. yeap. it's u. it's u it's u. don't ignore me har.

xoxo.

I'm colourful. But what's wrong with colourful life?.. haha..

1st. explain bout the title. i'm colourful, said by seebee and gang cause i setia-bf more than setiakawan. colourful in chinese means se4. means zhong4 se4 qing1 you3 la. lol. i told sheen bout this cause she's the other VERY colourful one. haha. and she replied 'what's wrong with colourful life?' which i agreed a lot. yeap. i lurve colourful life. lol.

2day har.. spent most of my time with my boy. cause it's the last time to meet before i leave for Japan. so we cherished a lot the time together. after the 1st bc paper, i dumped away my beloved kawan and loitered along with MZ and gang. sry frens. sry sry sry. then i have my 1st experience in cybercafe, 1st play on counterstrike. still not bad. at least i still killed Jul and ChinHeng for few times. haha. i still novice ler. dikira geng le. haha. but still will tershoot my teammate sumtimes. haha.

then after the last SPM paper, watched my 4th movie in 2 weeks time. BEE MOVIE~ buzz buzz buzz... the Barry, quite cute. but the ending is not what i want. overall the storyline okay okay only. but the effect not bad, so many cute cute thingy oso. so still not bad. hmm.. after that movie, drink honey oso will feel lil bit guilty. -.- but honey still so nice. haha.

the s4-ians having farewell dinner + celebrate OZZ's birthday at Station 1. 2day i so obedient ler. didn't even drink a drip of beer. haha. cause 2day feel lil bit dizzy dizzy le. don't suffer myself. then my dad says i must go back before 11pm. if not i will stay a bit longer. cause really so berat hati to leave my boy. start used to his presence le. later that 2 bloody long week don't know how to survive wei. aizs. bless me bless him.

my host family replied my email. and, and, and, what so disappointed is my host sis, Kaori is in Germany now. sad. i thought i can share a bedroom with her. i thought i can have sis-talk with her before bedtime. i thought i can go to school with her wearing the so-Japanese school uniform. i thought i thought i thought. aizs. so means i'm gonna go to the so so strange-to-me school alone? walaoeh.. really testing my bravery har. juz hope i won't cry there. duh!!

still, listening to Jay Chou's 彩虹. still, recommend u guys this nice song. yeap. maybe this song really suits our situation now. duh.

看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

i know i disappoint u again today. sry sry sry. i understand the two phrases up there. quite meaningful. don't luan luan think le k. <3


OZZ~ Happy Birthday!!

xoxo.

Monday, December 3, 2007

shop till i drop!! XD

no doubt, shopping really makes me 101% high! yeap. de among things that can relate me with girl is SHOP!! today, me and my sis plus my mom, spent almost 1k in juz few hours. this is called 101% GIRLS POWER. my dad said this. he's still thinking if really want to apply a credit card for me. haha. cause, with card, i mean it's gud when in emergency. lol. yeap. when there aren't any credits in your purse, it's considered as 101% emergency. wahaha... hmm.. today har.. altogether bought some long sleeves shirts, a pair of nike shoes, a pair of girly girly shoes, toiletries to bring to Japan, 2 dress, 2 sneakers. still so curious.. why my dad calculates all those receipts and total up to nearly 1k. lol.. summore now got sales. bbt's new jj really quite big. quite a lot of things to shop but quite a lot of shops still haven't open yet. i'm waiting for mcky, mng, voir, xoxo,... hey.. what if fasta pasta have a branch here?!.... (dreaming~) my favourite tiramisu.. i miss u loads.. 101%...

okay, this morning, bargaining with my 101% beloved daddy on how much should i bring to japan. end up, rm1000. i think its more than enuf. coz i ve no time for shopping. minus the time to visit those embassies, research institutes, factories, historical sites, museums, and minus the time writing reports, prepare debates thingy, prepare presentation thingy, i dun think i left more time for shopping. aizs. but i will try my very very very very best to shop. at least buy sumthing for myself, my beloved family, my boy and friends. but no promises friends out there. juz try my best har. ^^ summore my luggage i scare later too heavy until i cant carry. lol.

thinking what to give to my host family... sumtimes best presents Malaysia?!... durian can a?.. lol.. faint.. thinking thinking thinking.. aizs.. sambil thinking sambil writing blog sambil listening to Jay Chou's 彩虹. nice song! 101% recommended nice song!

**currently addicted to 101%. ignore them if offended. wahaha..

xoxo.

Sunday, December 2, 2007

Live to Love. Love leads to Peace.


This song, buatan Malaysia!! proud! and dunno get what international prize! bangganya. proved that MALAYSIA BOLEH!! Live to Love! so same as my believe. live to lurve, lurve to live, lurve leads to peace. hey. meaningful lyrics. click the play button to listen any of the version. nice. serene. calm. powerful. ENJOY~

Live to Love
Melody: Chow Kam Leong
Lyrics: Leonard Tan (English Translation)

The colors of the rainbow in our eyes
The warmth of hugs from our arms
Our ears listen the right from wrong
Love is patience and perseverance

The path that leads us to openness
From the chilly wind we embrace bitter and cold
Sunshine bring us renewal of hope
Love keeps us from harm

Let us live to love
In darkness we find warmth in our hearts
Let us live to love
Let us forgot the Wars and hatred
Let us live to love
Let us treat hatred with tenderness

Let us spread the message of love and
make the world a better place
(Let our hearts be filled with love)

Yearning to fulfill our promises and trust
Listeninh to pave the distance between us
Don't be afraid of loneliness in the night
Love gives us strength in life

Who is calling when the wind blows?
Who would feel their sadness?
Who will lend them a hand in strength?
Let us bring smiles back on their faces


存为爱
词/曲:周金亮

眼睛让我们期待彩虹
双手让我们学会拥抱
耳朵让我们听到坦诚相待的话
爱让一颗心无怨等待
大路让我们看到天地
风雪让我们接受严冬
阳光和雨水带给我们希望
爱让我们永远不受伤
让我们 存为爱 黑暗中温暖的胸怀
让我们 存为爱 把战火狠狠抛开
让我们 存为爱 用温柔把仇恨对待
让我们 把爱传开 让世界更美好起来(让心永存爱)
思念让我们相信承诺
聆听让距离慢慢靠近
面对孤独长夜别害怕寂寞
爱让我们勇敢站起来
风吹过是谁在呼唤
有谁听到他们的哀伤
谁愿意给他们力量
让欢笑回到他们的脸上
















































xoxo.

Sympathy?!.. Expensive! Don't simply waste it. -.-

nowadays, don't simply use sympathy a.. cause will die faster. crimes today mostly use sympathy to cheat people. don't feel pity to those small kids, old lady or whatever. don't turn your head here and there when walk. look forward. don't ke po.

waaaa.... so easy to say.. i'm de 1st to simply use sympathy wei.. i don't think much.. i'm easy. i don't think complicated. cham... in short, means my percentage to cheat by people is higher than anyone else. Japan?!... duh?!... do i really need to go alone?!.. scary.. start to scare le wei.. what if i go in public toilet and never come out again? what if i help to bring a small kid back to her home, and wake up with naked? omg~~~ touchwood!!

MingZu says, be very very careful. when eat, when drink, when in bathroom, everytime, anytime, anywhere. muz be more alert to everything. My daddy says, don't ever help other people to carry anything at imigration or anywhere else. don't talk to stranger. (but i go alone wei.. everyone is strangers for me. duh?!!!)

guess i have to set reminders repeated every half and hour during my trip to Japan. so that i won't forget to be more careful. yeap. i'm friendly, i'm helpful. my alertness is zero. but don't worry. i will be better after 2 weeks. bless me!

xoxo.

Saturday, December 1, 2007

my 1st movie date. :)

yeap. i spend whole day with my boy today. from breakfast until dinner. great day huh. yeap. we watched 2 movies, which the 1st one i already forget half the story. lol. Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium. hey, it's really magic. yeap. if u really trust it's magic, it will be magical. yeap yeap yeap. so so agree. i lurve Eric. the lil 9-year-old kid with an abundant of hat collections. how good if there's a real wonder emporium rite?.. hmm.. if there's a room full of bouncing balls, is more than enough to excite me. lol.

SOMEONE bet with me, says he could buy tickets for movies in the morning. and, it turns out to be Poof~ nothing. so i had my free lunch. haha. dunno who a.. i say sure out of tickets, and he says he pro a.. sure can buy one.. blek.. XD

the 2nd movie, Enchanted. u guys should watch this. really really nice Disney movie. funny. cute. lovely. innocent. hey, what makes it so Disney-movie is the singing part la. cause, every Disney movie sure got singing de. nice song. nice voice. Giselle, the cute, adorable, innocent, alwiz-happily-ever-after girl, and the cute chipmunk - Pip, this movie really chun.. must watch a~

hmm.. 2day hor.. we have done a good thing har.. hey guys SPCA is the organisation for animals protection one rite?!.. cause there's a volunteer making fund and her SPCA was for what kanak-kanak spastik. aizs aizs. sia sueinya me. giv mz suan har.. then i'm realy sux in rejecting these thingy. still learning how to reject. cause when i really not enough money for myself, i will donate to them too. no why. juz sux in rejecting. aizs. but still feel so good. cause we donate 30 bucks altogether. generousnya kami. lol. later claim back the money from mom har. >.<

hey dear, this is a date. 1st movie date. yeap yeap yeap. it's a date. memorable huh. yeap. won't have chance before i go Japan le. but there's still chance after i come back rite.. dun so pessimistic la wei. chill~

hey, 2 weeks won't be so long. trust me. i won't fly u. blek.

xoxo.

Friday, November 30, 2007

3rd Nov. The day i became unavailable. -.-

It's 12 midnight now but still feel so awake. no why. missing him. thinking him. my boy, we started off abruptly. very. no much reason, just follow my very own feeling. and, what surprised me was i confessed. maybe should say he is the lucky one cause i don't confess to boys before this and i thought i will never do this in my life. plus, my friends thought i studied until i can't think well or whatever more reason, i started a relationship right after graduation, and before my very important SPM examination. i know i made my decision too too fast, i actually only started to think bout us, our future after few weeks. but thanks god, I FOUND A GREAT BF!! yeap, he's great. he's the 101% nice guy. at least for me, to me. :))

hmm... we were classmates for 2 years. he actually sit quite not far from my place but we seldom talk. my fault. cause i'm a TR queen, a ponteng God and a lot more what nots. some more if i'm in class, i sleep more than awake. so in form 4 there's totally no much interaction betweeen me and my classmates. i'm so so tidak-apa with class thingys. i didn't know my classmates' name too. so forget bout form 4. form 5, situation became better. at least my classmates got chances to hear me shout and sceam and laugh loudly. yeap, started to be so noisy in class until every teachers know me. -.- bt still, we didn't talk much. if not mistaken, we started to know each other more on SPM trial. he's shy. haha. we sms-ed more than talked. we used to talk when with whole bunch of friends. and, he's good in ignoring. maybe i'm good in ignoring him too. lol. then, things just went fine. then, we became better and better. then, like that like that then together lor.. (i actually forgot what's happening that time. lol. i'm a lousy gf! >.<)

compared to me, he's really great. he's caring, understanding, supportive, loving, cute, concerning, trusting and a lot a lot a lot more. jealousy?.. hmm.. he said No but i said Yes. sometimes la. don't care, i say yea means yes. blek. lol. sumtimes, i used to be a sassy gf. sometimes only. XD we are like so friendly couple. he get his freedom, so do I. cause he said if i don't have freedom, i will never be me anymore. when he told this, i'm like so so touched. so touched until wanna cry. -.- he trust me a lot. me too. he keeps on asking me if i jealous when he's dealing with other girls. but jealousy?!.. i have but not much. cause i know him and he knows me. for me, that's more than enough.

a lousy gf i am. 101%. maybe is lil bit blur + lil bit slow responds + lil bit dunno-what-happen. my concerns were always out-dated. don't ask me why. but for me, at least i concerned rite. summore once, what so hurty was i don't know how to write his chinese name. but now i won't forget forever. lol. sry dear, for hurting u so many times. i don't mean it. opps. is sry for ter-hurt u so many times. my sis says i use my butt to think. sometimes, i agree. i just don't think before i talk. sorry.

many friends of us actually so surprised when they know we had make up our relationship. and, some even don't look good on us. so many different responds, i still stand on my decision. cause i know my friends, my sisters, my heng daiS... u guys support me wholly. feel touched actually. i'm easily-touched.

hey dear, i lurve u. much. that 2 weeks when i leave for Japan, don't think so much. don't a. if not i will kill u.. blek.. i promise i will be very very very very very careful. trust me, i'm not that innocence and suei to cheat by other people gua.. summore i trust AFS. so, don't so worry. 2 weeks will pass in a blink. :)

hmm.. how i wish i got amnesia before i leave for Japan, so that i won't be too missing u then. i will homesick!!!!! aizs. still a small kid i am.

lurve u. <3
xoxo.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Sunway Lagoon?!... duh?!...

i hop, i jump, i fly....
all those stuff that i wish to write before this, at this moment, don't feel want to write those. i mean my graduation day, my after-graduation farewell party, precious relationship with my boy... ignore those by now. next time see if i still writing back bout these stuff.

by the way, today, i went to Lagoon with my sis. so a lot of jokes we made. not jokes actually. is things that mempersiasueikan. aizs. 1st. my sis drives. and, she knows federal highway but she doesn't want to go by that way cause she hates traffic jam. so we go from kesas highway. two blur blur kids looking at every single signboard. luckily we managed to reach lagoon.

2nd. at the ticket booth. i can be forgive because my last time to lagoon is bout few years back. but my sis she juz came here last few weeks. and we wasted 40bucks for the tickets. what we need are theme park tickets. i suggested this. but my sis say 'see the ALL PARK ticket?!.. buy that lah!'.. after all we realized that we don't need ALL PARK (theme park + extreme park + wildlife park) ticket. summore after that we realized that we are like the odd ones with purple ticket while others using blue tickets. gosh! everyone like looking at our tickets, what are v going to do with WILDLIFE PARK??!!!... park for kiddies wei.. aizs aizs.

3rd. 'hey sis, gimme sunblock wei!!' 'sunblock?!.. i thought u bring?!..' GOOD! we came to lagoon and none of us bring sunblock. see, i'm even darker now. duh?!.. aizs.

4th. a bunch of silly people, boys, Chinese summmore.. few of them, me n my sis sit on the same boat (dikira boat, cause it's on de water) lol. there's water splashing here and there, but not everyone will kena one la. so these few so not gentlemen, before the water splash, they will try to turn tat so-called boat and 'stupidly' everytime me and my sis got splash.. omfg.. and, when we were all wet, and they were so so dry, they laugh on us?!... chinese wei.. at 1st i thought only malay do these. stupid chinese people.. i mean only them. then they start tackling (dikira tackle gua.. bt not me.. wahaha.. is my lenglui sis) us.. gud.. they were like so noisy, so stupid, so irritating a.. then we start to avoid them, whole day. hey.. i'm not enjoying with these people disturbing here and there k.. grr!! make me so fed up to hide here and there.

~don't go lagoon with just two person~ (cause it's not as fun as go with whole bunch of frens.. sien..)

then.. we rent a double-tube. cause we thought we need to rent it before we can play those water-play. gud. our tube, green tube, 25bucks. before entrance we saw 'no green tube allowed' lol. again, i blur, my sis more blur. tat tube we rented can be used at the two big big pool. gud gud gud. and tat 25bucks we just rent for 10minutes. so altogether today we wasted 65bucks. aizs. we are not rich!! so wasted.

later on, we went to sunway pyramid 2. the new building, quite big, quite nice. last so silly thing is......... when i went to toilet, i.. i... i..... dropped my sis's phone into the toilet bowl!!! dum~ dum~ dum~... de sound goes like tat.. n at that time, i'm so shocked so blank so dunno wat to do.. then i ask my sis to come in.. then.... die ler.. the phn die ler.. aizs. guilty. my sis says 'don't let me see u sms again!!!' aizs. die.

bt overall 2day is a good day.. improve sis relationship. haha. we screamed on the pirate ship. just us screaming. lol. we scream when people don't. we scream when people scream. we enjoyed. we have new experience, new memories. chill!!!

yeap, blur blur me should have bring my very clear boy along. haha.

xoxo.

xoxo.

Sunday, November 4, 2007

stay tuned, friends.

hmm. juz to inform those concerning friends out there. i will not be blogging until spm over. get my latest updates bout graduation day, my so-called complicated relationships, my ex-kwanghuarian thoughts and many more after spm. so many interesting and challenging stuff to blog actually. but. hmm. time is not allowing me to blog. so. stay tuned. lol.


xoxo.

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

beh tahan.. aizs!

beh tahan beh tahan.. lol. when i thought i'm the only one self-degrading, i realize i'm not alone. lol. my friends claimed that they sleep more than doing any other thing. yea. me too. sometimes sleep like pig, sometimes just cant sleep until 3am. cheers, friends! haha.

recently, watched 'Secret'. sry to someone cause i watch by myself. the movie, sad ending. i almost cry. another touching love story. Jay, really talented. i don't really like him. but he can produce such an easy but engraving story. not bad actually. the soundtrack! you guys must not leave out with. many nice pieces give great impact to the movie. feel want to post all the soundtracks here. but i'm not that good in using blogspot. hmm. guess next time when i'm free to try it on, i will share it here. i actually downloaded the soundtrack's piano scores. but still no time to practice on it. some of the soundtracks really touched into my heart when i listen to them. especially those performed by Czech Philharmonic Orchestra. nice nice.

tommorow, i will graduate. after tommorow, i will be an ex-student of Kwang Hua. hmm. sad actually. i miss those days in school. in class. in band. in marathons. in competitions. those were the days. the time i siao with my beloved friends. tommorow, looking forward to our 1st and last class performance. looking forward to the farewell party at Poh Yuan's house. Looking forward to a great evening with all of u. 5s4, we rock! our laughter our tears, never bring our bonds end. cheers!

xoxo.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

the 26th's

it's 26th today and i'm still self-degrading. aizs. hmm.. now only i know actually there's quite a lot of friends reading my blog. lol. why u guys so supportive har.. haha. thanks anyway. and, i only realised that i usually blog after 11pm when munjie told me. lol. yea. these days keep online until midnight. busying with class mag, graduation day's performance, this and that. but i'm still okay. cause want sleep can't sleep. lol. life's been so hard. and ya, friends, don't give me surprise or whatever related to not-so-common thingy. don't play a fool with me, especially when i'm really moody. eg, today, chia chuen and chin heng actually purposely apply elephant glue on the door. i was cheated by them and my fingers were so uncomfortable after that. hey, i hated elephant glue k. i'm not princess-like. but i really don't like my hand to be in this stupid condition. i lurve my hands k. dont try it again next time or i will kill u two!! and, my health is a bit affected these days, no surprise for me. i cant take it. lol. although still not sure whether mz's tipping right or wrong.

today i received mail from AFS and i was selected as a young ambassador to Japan.. haha. at last i succeed. sry to those s4-ians. cant spend graduation trip with u all. enjoy ba..


xoxo.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

What's wrong with me?!.. I too wanna know.

bored of current life. actually my life is meaningful. but don't know why feel so meaningless. tired. bored. don't know struggling for what. don't know hoping for what. miracle ba. hope for confident, hope for success, hope for something that couldn't be described. i've changed. everyone changed too. i need concerns. need it desperately, before i drown.

current situation: moodless.



xoxo.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Don't ever ignore friends. teruk akibatnya!

i've learnt my lesson not to ignore friends. i mean even i'm busy or whatever. hey friends, don't ignore friends especially BOY friends. cause they will never forget they have been ignored by u. and, what so horrible was the consequences. i really couldn't bear it. super rude words coming out from their so-call clean mouth, keep suan-siaoing bout my ignorance, treating me like treating enemy, and doing lots of nonsense. threatening me. aizs. stay cool? u are not cool in this way k. just wanna ask.. are we still friends? do you still treat me as friend? what so cool bout hating someone? u seem like hating lots of people. i think it's more happy, more relaxing when discard hatred and envy. aizs.

i will try my best to not ignore friends. sorry sorry sorry.



xoxo.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

live. life. lurve.

since there's a Someone using this quote also, so gonna talk some bout this very-Eva-quote. i'm live. sure lah. i mean i'm active, or even hyperactive. life. my life, so colourful, so interesting. i enjoy life. lurve, the most important thing human live for. lurve among family, friends, couple... i have almost complete lurve, from friends and family. boyfriend?!.. still searching. lol. my quote meaningful ba?.. haha. ss again. the 3 most important things for me - Live, Life, Lurve.

today, very moody. in class, in bandroom, when dancing, when doing bloody class mag. aizs. pricky thorns i have 2day. sry friends if i offend u guys. sry sry sry. summore so fed up with the class mag edi. friends, don't make my job harder. aizs. sleepy.

xoxo.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

don't be racist lah!..

these days, life full with tuition. lol. tuitions never end, especially friday, hated friday. today tuitioning also, half-concentrating, half-gossiping with gang. from the mistery Kevin with 9001 follow after his name until the 2 strangers become couple in our class. lol. life's so interesting actually. but sometimes quite nonsense also.

not long before this, our 1st Malaysian astronaut leave for space station. bangganya~ i practice patriotisme. swear. the damn handsome Dr Sheikh Muzzafar actually was a doctor and was still SINGLE. lol. how good if he's a Chinese. i'm not to be racist but my family, i mean my dad my mom my sis were so so anti him. cause, he's a Malay. i mean the 1st asronaut from Malaysia is a Malay. this topic i actually 'debated' with my BELOVED family and we nearly quarrel. lol. and i'm so alone cause i'm the only one support him. my mom said he is like no other millionaires who just merely wish to visit the outer space. my sis said he's just a mere doctor and know nothing about the outer space and just having holiday there. my mom said again that he shouldn't use our money, i mean those taxes to just travel there. and they said, it's unfair because there's more talented and qualified CHINESE astronaut to be in his present place. they said CHINESE should get the honour. gosh. why so unhappy? why so unsatisfied? for me, i really feel proud of Dr Shiekh, don't care what is his intention to space. he's actually promoting Malaysia to the world. and, i heard that he will do reseaches in the space and after that continue to reseach on cancer at Russia. isn't it cool? i mean why get so hard with the skin color? as long as he does good things right? the research results is for everyone lah, my dear family. and, guess what, i lose in this so-called debate because they keep saying that i stand on Dr Shiekh's side just because of he is HANDSOME. lol. too bad. he's indeed handsome. but i still awake de. my brain still turning. lol. conclusion ~ i still lose and my dad says don't ever mention this topic. reason is our relationship will be affected. lol. I, still lose. aizs.

since i'm writing bout RACISM, i really really can't accept how Pizza Hut treat the Malaysian other than the bumiputra. hey guys out there, do u guys know that Pizza Hut actually charged tax using race, i mean in every Pizza Hut.i mean in the bill, there is a column indicates 'Race'. if u are a chinese, they will label it as C. and, taxes are charged for chinese, indian and other ethnics other than malay. in other words, if u wearing tudung, u can save up the taxes. isn't it unfair?!... i know this by forwarded email. i do hope it wasn't real. if not, for sure i won't support Pizza Hut anymore. this is Hak Pengguna la wei.



ah, there's another story bout racism. malay always diutamakan. and chinese, duh, just forget bout it. what i wanna say is driving license. for malay, when they take practical exam, they can pass easily. for chinese pula, most of us need to pay more. in chinese, we always say 'bao'. in other words means rasuah lah. for me, i pay for rm180. other people i not sure lah. maybe more than that. if not, like most of my friends, they failed their test unless they are really very good in driving skills. it's so so so unfair lah. i mean think ourselves lah, malaysia's economy depends a lot on chinese, chinese is further smarter than others and so on. what would malaysia be if without chinese? but we still being treated unfairly. the priority always go to Malay. no choice, cause we live in MALAYsia. lol.

**no offence. it's mere my thought. back off to those being offend. lol. sry ya!

woof~

tommorow the last f1 race in this season. KIMI RAIKKONEN go go go!! must get champion. kimi edi lost 2 chance to become world champion ler.. wasted. and, i know i am bad. praying Hamilton and Alonso's car slide off from track, or engine prob also can la. hamilton don't get top 3. alonso don't get 1st or 2nd. plz plz plz. kimi must win~ KIMI jia you!!!

xoxo.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

ruinned up life. fed up.

these few days, my life kinda upsidedown. can't sleep at night, can't study well, class mag stucked, AFS application form filling without ending. everything started to be not in the right way, the way they supposed to be. started to have dissatisfaction on life. i too hope i can study like i do in trials, guess what, i read form 5 sejarah textbook pg 1-6 for gizillian times, omfg, i just couldn't concentrate and didn't know what am i doing. and, what made me more mad is, stupid pimples!! 1st time i got so so many pimples on my forehead. gosh! it shouldn't be there. suddenly hated myself so so much. don't even wanna look into the mirror. what happen har?!... i want my 2-week-before-eva return. fed up fed up fed up. cause of period (i usually look so dead on this period)? or no motivation? or?... just leave it silent.

woof~

today, i should have reach school at 8.30am. guess what, i'm still in bed on 8.37am. aizs. ruinned up life. then i reached school at bout 10.30am. don't tell me u guys really waited for me until 10.30 a. sorry for being late. sorry guys. then the 1st dance, i paired up with khai boon, my respectful ah ma. lol. and, we are like so so know each other edi. hmm. still okay cause i'm professional enough to control my feeling. sure not feeling of love. lol. okay, love for grandma. lol. oh man, why am i so SLIM? lol. (no offence har) cause khai boon can just easily hold me up and i can easily jump to the other side without really jumping. haha. khai boon is damn handsome when playing diabolo. really, i swear. he is so alive when playing that magic thingy. lol. _skip those stories_ then we went to kp for lunch. 1st time i loiter with whole bunch of classmates at kp, at the food court. not the place where the band people like. lol. they so chun man. when the girls shop for dresses the boys, i mean all of them, the hardworking one, they were group study at KP's FOODCOURT! and they were damn kao concentrate. lol. envy them. aizs. conclusion~ today was a great day! ^^

xoxo.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

which cover to use?!.. choose choose choose!!

due to the request of our very beloved class monitor, i have make multi-color choices for u guys to choose again cause monitor said black and white not strike enough to attention people. so friends out there, choose again, comment again. in wat language also can la. english, chinese, han yu pin yin, bangladesh english, malay, indian.. whatever it is eligible. lol. ur comment make things better.


original. black and white cheaper wei..


grey.


brown.


green.


underwater blue.


baby blue.


shiraz. other than de original's, this i like the best.


orange. this also not bad la.. ^^


shiraz+black. lol.


er.. juz trying on de color..


yulks!!


this one so teruk la.


white and orange.


orange and white. inspired from sony ericsson. lol.

aiya, semuanya cantik juga. saya yg buat ma.. haha.. kreatifnya~ lol.

xoxo.

Finalizing 5s4 Magazine 2007.

phew! it's been the whole day trying to finish this so-wasting-time magazine. i rearranged everything, called the publisher, designed the bloody cover (which i don't want to use butterfly or LADYBIRD anymore). i counted everything and realized that hey classmates, u guys wrote a lot huh.. 1 cover, 1 poem by Mei Fong, 1 valentine poem by everyone, 5 pages of DINOSAURS by all of us, 11 pages for Teachers' biodata, 10 pages of photos, 42 pages of classmates' biodata AND will be more than 180 pages of SHOUTOUTS! i actually trying to bargain with the publisher. and, she says she needs time to count out the overall cost. classmates out there, try to save your money from today a.. i think u guys will have a lot to pay. hmm.. last but not least, everyone give some comment on the 2 covers. and tell me which u like better. thanks.


actually i like this better. cause i like easy and plain one. black and white is striking enough to gain people's attention. haha. plus, if we use this we can save a lil bit more cause it doesn't need color printing for cover.


as for this, a bit 'colorful'? er.. complicated actually. i will make my last decisions based on votes.. so leave comments k..

as for those HELPFUL friends out there. if whoever wants to design a better cover for me.. please and thanks lot. ^^

xoxo.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

I'm a gonna-be AFS-er! *cheers*

okay. actually write a post this afternoon. but cause of the not so good functioning streamyx.. haiz.. don't say edi. sad. actually this afternoon wanna share my joyfulness with all my friends. i was offered a 2 weeks scholarship to japan as an exchange student! and, i'm like just one of a few from the whole country. bangganya~ japan, imagine the sakura, winter, the high school uniform, disneyland. omg.. can't wait till 7th of december. actually i wrote a longer one this afternoon. then now no mood to repeat everything. just wanna say.. thanks for everyone's support. friends, family, AFS... u guys made my life great!

and, i fell down from the chair AGAIN if front of the pc. aizs. this time hurt my butt and hand. pain. but now still feel so happy cause finally i found that song. Vanessa Mae's Prelude and Fugue in D Minor. i find for years. thanks to iMesh. opps, is thanks to MZ cause intro this software to me. thanks.

xoxo.

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

fed up?!... not me. is sheen and mz.

just fall down in front of laptop. cause i sit on two-legged chair. i mean my fault. lol. my butt so pain. lol. daddy laugh at me. Eda says belly gud. mommy rush to me cause she thought what happen and end up with nagging on me to not spoil her chair. lol. this world, aizs, change already. they should console me what? my butt still pain ler. lagi satu Ming Zu says cause i'm fat. 80kg? nah!! i'm 45kg slim and fit girl. lol. and, he use a so good theory to shut me up. when surface area increases, rate of reaction increases = that's why i can be slim. lol. hey MZ, where can u find a slim and fit panda? lol. panda sure chubby and cute de ma. haha!

woof~

5s4 class magazine, make me feel wanna die. luckily i no mood to study now. if not i sure throw all the magazine stuff into rubbish bin. aizs. why me?!.. aizs.. you lucky 41 classmates. luckily i'm dedicated. if not, forget bout class mag ba! hmm.. i won't so bad. i just need cooperations from 41 classmates and 10 teachers. and i found out that teachers are even worse than classmates. they gave all sort of excuses not to fill up the paper. TEACHERS, COOPERATION PLEASE! and Gan Ming Zu~ don't forget u say u wanna help me on this class magazine a. i don't care. u promise already. blek.

lastly, Ming Zu ask me to not write in blog that i fall in love with him. haha. blek. i didn't say i fall in love with u in blog. i didn't! really!
wahahaha...

xoxo.

Monday, October 8, 2007

talented + God bless + hard work = top students!

hmm... streamyx nowadays so useless. 1 month don't know needa repair for how many times. bored me for 3 days. aizs. by the way. these four days quite a lot of things happen. needa summarize all into a post. aizs. hate it, but no choice. lol. okay. 1st, the above title is quoted from Jiunn Yi. he said i possessed it. but i denied. talented, okay, i have a lil bit, just lil bit. God bless = luck! i got it much this trial. thanks God! u.u hard work? maybe i did work hard. but not that much. still remember before trial how i self-degraded. and, i'm like recycle what i've done for trial. lol. what makes me really satisfied this trial were my colourful results. i couldn't believe how God treated me so well. really. i appreciated. overall 10 subject,i scored 7a2, 1b3, 1b4 and 1c6. my scores:
BM - 61 B4
BI - 72 A2
BC - 73 A2
MATH - 76 A2
MORAL - 71 A2
SEJARAH - 68 B3
BIOLOGY - 50 C6
CHEMISTRY - 70 A2
PHYSICS - 73 A2
EST - 70 A2
you know, man doesn't satisfy for what he has. it's true. 100% true. when i aimed for 4A's before trial, i thought 4a's will satisfy me. but when i get more than that, greed in me came out. i keep thinking why i didn't get an A for Sejarah as i think i deserved it. lol. funny human. and, i regretted for not studying biology as it was easier than what i thought and i could get an A if i really study. but i don't. if not this coming graduation day, you guys can see me on stage receiving pingat gangsa for academic achievement. lol. dreaming. yea, now i can just dream. lol. laugh me. motivate me. wake me. everyone, please. i'm in the process of self-degrade again. nearly one week after trial. i didn't even really study. just stared at the book. waiting for miracle? oh no. God won't always help me. i ain't so lucky everytime. so friends out there, help me as much as possible. like i helping someone. lol. (this another story. story down there)

woof~

when i said i'm self-degraded. nobody trust. fair. cause there's two bloody idiots more degraded than me. unbelievable. lol. no offence. u two for sure still my friends. trying to help u all out. don't mind what i write here k. always love u guys. 1st, Mr A. a so so pessimistic person. until my optimistic also can't really help him. he keep saying himself stupid, useless, leading blank life, gonna die and of sort of bla bla bla. i mean nonsense. at 1st, few weeks ago, i try my very very best to help him. cause i know he can do it, he's just inconfident. (or unconfident?!.. lol. my english sucks) i motivated him to study. as much as he can. i trusted him that he will study. hope so. still, i don't really know what kind of person he is although we used to sms so frequently. he's nice. he's caring. but he has no confident. not at ALL!! 1st time seeing such a pessimistic person. i'm thankful i live to be an optimist. lol. maybe he's just lazy. and try to find a lot a lot of excuses to not study. but, i'm kinda this type of person also. self-righteous! haha. he is a lot more teruk than me. how am i going to help him? to be more confident in himself. i'm always helpful. no matter to whom. or in other word, i'm kepo. lol. help me to help him!
2nd, Mr. B. struggle in love. for what? i don't really know. he said he can die for that girl. worthy?!.. sure NOT! sometimes i really can't understand how u guys think. die for your love.. opps.. is die for one you love but she doesn't love u? omg.. hey there's still a lot more girls in this world k? hmm.. maybe i still haven't find my true love. i can't feel what u all feel right now. suiciding feeling. i'm still innocent. lol. he, cause of the girl can't even concentrate when doing everything. eat, sleep, study.... hmm.. what for?!.. the girl won't know, won't appreciate though. hey friends, wake up, wake up on the saturday nite. lol. hilary duff pulak.. just want u all to wake up and see more beautiful things in this world. jump out of the box. u can have a better tomorrow. just like me!

** no offence ya. i just write what i feel. stay cool! ^^

woof~

i cut my hair!! finally. haha. no big difference. hmm.. quite a lot of difference actually. 1st, hair become lesser. 2nd, head become lighter. 3rd, become cuter. lol. ss again! 40 dollar for just some hairs being cut. worth?!.. maybe. u decide it!


aiya.. look sleepy and dark. yea i'm dark!


going to wedding dinner. i lurve my hairstyle. but it just remain like this before i wash my hair. lol. stylist always make us pretty pretty before going out the saloon. haha.


aww... still got short hair effect. lol. if i have better hair quality. for sure i won't leave my hair long!

xoxo.

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Gear 1 before SPM. don't lift clutch too much!

hmm, yesterday just passed my driving exam. hey guys out there, I'M A P-LISENCE HOLDER!! haha. syoknya! and, do i look so Malay?!.. wth! yesterday a Malay (a mix Chinese and Malay, but look almost a Chinese.) da1 shan4 me. lol. erhem. haha. but so sad, he thought i'm a Malay. and, what was funny is i thought he's a Chinese. so when he speak bloody good Malay with me, i speak back my pure Chinese to him. omg. imagine the scene? we are like a chicken talking to a duck. at last, i spoke Malay to him. lol. his name is Afiz. ah, a super duper friendly guy. khai wee said he look quite good..... from far. lol. for the 1st time in my life, i talked soooo a lot with a Malay in a Malay conversation. and, for the 1st time in my life, i admitted my Malay SUCKS! he needs to repeat bout twice only i understand wth he is talking about. omfg, malay?!.. duh!! i hardly speak a nice sentence using Malay. i'm like.. umm... erm.. ar... then i use English. lol. laugh ba.. i'm sucks in Malay. should speak malay with Abdu next time. lol. yesterday, i really feel living in MALAYsia. lol. i think i speak the most Malay in my life yesterday. haha!

today, i dance. a super duper complicated dance. fast beat, latin dance. it's the high school musical's Bop to the Top! the soundtrack was nice. but omg. my legs were almost tied up. lol. i nearly fell down. although i'm quite artistic (not quite, is bloody much!) but i'm not into dancing! NOT AT ALL! so hard for me actually. but, aiks, last month, last performance in secondary school, it's nothing to feel ashame. plus, i told Ming Zu i will try to back up Mei Fong in this performance cause her plan didn't get a good feedback. quite regret after saying that. lol. cause i'm sucks in dancing. but quite challenging also lah. hope to see improvement after one month. i'm confident. i mean i'm kiasu lah. haha. bop bop bop, bop to the top! for sure i will bop to the top!

Mei Fong says, Gemini don't have butt. lol. true, i agree. not me, not mei fong, not chia chuen either. haha. cause we don't drink MILK, we say no to PAPAYA. haha. that's why, we don't have 'front' and 'back'. lol.

Watch it! Our class graduation song - Graduation by Vitamin C



xoxo.

Sunday, September 30, 2007

I trust easily!

Your Birthdate: June 15

You take life as it is, and you find happiness in a variety of things.
You tend to be close to family and friends. But it's hard to get into your inner circle.
Making the little things wonderful is important to you, and you probably have an inviting home.
You seek harmony with others, but occasionally you have a very stubborn streak.

Your strength: Your intense optimism

Your weakness: You shy away from exploring your talents

Your power color: Jade

Your power symbol: Flower

Your power month: June

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Alas, trial ends.

24th Sept, Monday
English paper. Thanks to the 100% accurate tips. i wrote quite a long essay bout Malaysia, my home. add a lot of nice and interesting points - thanks to Siyan, cause i got lots of inspiration from her blog 'the joy of merdeka'. overall, english paper at least can get a B lah. i mean if the examiner isn't Mr Nedu, i can get more than that. lol. another good news for today is _____ i got an A1 for maths!! woohooo.. 86% man.. unbelievable! but only after that i realize this very-satisfy-math paper is just a trial for trial. lol. stupid lah. i worked so hard for it. by the way, still so happy. haha. our friend, Ming Zu, don't know what had happened to him. he was so depressed. so unconfident. so self-degrade. omg. he thought he was stupid. he thought he had no future. he thought he is an idiot with us. cause, he didn't even give himself chances.

25th Sept, Tuesday
Math again. this time is the actual paper for trial. lol. i couldn't sleep the night before. keep thinking of those stupid math formula. i'm lke that. stressed. and, the whole night i try my best to console, encourage and give hopes to MZ. cause i know HE'S NOT STUPID! thanks God, he revised those i asked to and he managed to answer the section B of paper 2. actually, hmm... quite proud quite touched cause i helped him out a lil bit. at least he tried. yea, feel happy for him. but, good things never last long. at last i know this so-called stupid quote. he began again la. his 'heng'. he is so super duper no confident, so sad.. every friends wanted to help him out. every friends try to talk to him, encourage him, console him. of course, me too.

....to be continue...... [going out for dinner. lol.]

Sunday, September 23, 2007

I'm sorry. :(



For the very 1st time, i will write my feeling for love in blog. Ignore me for those who know me very very well.

I don't like any of my friends, family, strangers or whoever unhappy, frustrated, being affected by my words or action. Really~ but it's quite unfair to leave it just doing nothing. Khai Wee says so. That's why I finally told him yesterday night. It's quite unfair to waste his time. yea, he's right. Feeling - yes means yes, and no means no. It's hard to say. It cant be manipulated. And, i still haven't find out who i give my feeling to. Kinda sad. But sure it's not him cause i didn't miss him at all. Actually it's very hard for me to tell out everything. i will start to think how he feels after that. i couldn't bear if he is sad or even do nothing well. it had been one year i think. he cares for me, worry for me, thinks for me, one year i think. i'm stupid cause my observation is kinda slow. our friends reminded me so many things. Am i giving him hope?!.. yes and no. I just wanna treat him fairly like no other friends. He treats me more than ordinary friend. Someone says being loved is better than loving someone. it's easier, it's happier. but then i don't really agree. it's really been very very very very unfair. love is interaction between two person. And, love do have right and wrong. and, this time. i'm the one who break his heart. deeply. i'm the wrong one. i'm sorry. i really don't need a bf by the moment. i enjoyed being with friends. a lot of friends. i don't like the feeling of berdua-duaan. i don't like just two of us. and, i don't like when whole bunch of people went out, his emo-feeling when i treat other boys better or accidentally ignoring him. many friends asked why i don't accept his love. okay, i really don't have any reasons to reject him as he treats me really very very good, he's good too. hey, when FEELING don't come, it wont come. i too want to accept him, i too want everyone to be happy. i too one a happy ending. but if i just accept him like that, it will bring a greater impact after that, till that time, his heart not even break, is shatter to pieces. sorry friends, i disappointed u guys. i know u guys hope to see us together.

for him~
i'm sorry i rejected your every dates. i don't know how to face you when just two of us. quite hard for me actually. i'm sorry i only tell you now if u really see this. i keep telling myself - treat him as ordinary friend. treat him like no others. i keep finding topics to chat about that day when we were at canteen. cause i afraid of the silence when just two of us. i keep running away, talk bout other things when u start the topic about us. i know u know this. what gui lian do for u is almost the same as what u do for me although i didn't feel annoyed like u do. i mean the feeling for her to u is same as what yours to me. she changed a lot. u too. mayb me too. i've so used to it of u. your message, your 'dear', your greetings, your 100+, friends putting us together, and other more. that's why i didn't really reject them. but habits will lead to unfair. it's unfair to u. u love me. i don't. i just used to it only. maybe some action of me lead to misunderstanding. i apologize. i know it's late to apologize now. but better than i don't right? i will start to minimize your hurt, your sadness, your sorrowness. everything between us ended faster is better for u n me. the longer, the more painful it will be. i'm not the whole world. there are a lot of friends out there, concern bout u, care bout u, and willing to help u out. forget me. the best way to minimize ur pain. i know we still have a lot of chance to meet. just take it normal. like what we do a year before. this is a better ending. and yea another thing, i know u know it too. i know i'm nobody to remind u this. there's another girl, who treat u, like how u treat me. she does everything for u. she's the one who support u certainly. On your birthday, she afraids i will forget bout your birthday and u might be disapppointed, so she sms-ed me. she reminded me not to forget your birthday. she loves u in the other way. silently, carefully, supportively. don't ignore her. she told everyone she had give up the feeling of love to u. but eventually, she hopes for your praise, your greets, your concerns, your words everytime. i'm a girl too. i know how she feels just that i haven't find who i love. give the necklace and the number to her. being loved is better than loving. lastly, don't cry cause of me, or if u will feel better by crying, go ahead, but not too long. back to normal faster. i still treat u as friend. i still hope to talk, to laugh, to gossip with u like what we do a year before. i hope u do treat me like that. like an ordinary friend. it takes time. time will help u to become normal.

Chen yee, Khai wee, Yee yun... thanks for supporting my decision. u guys give me the courage to say it out. i'm touched. thanks~ hearted u guys!


p/s: no offence of what i wrote. sorry if being offended.





xoxo.

Saturday, September 22, 2007

Bloody Trials.

2 weeks after my 1st blog, cause of the bloody trial exam papers. i didn't sleep more than 48 hours during this two week. Stressed up, bored life, u can just find me in school, tuition centre and home. Other than study and sleep, hmm.. my very enjoying part during these days is EAT. Eat non-stop, eat a lot. From junkies to tomatoes to fruits.. oh yea n mooncakes.. Guess i will add on weight for few kg. lol. btw, it's still not that stugglefor JPS spm trials, cause almost all papers were leak before our exams. lol. and the questions are the same.

11th Sept, Monday
Chemistry paper. My antenas were a bit quite short. I didn't even know such papers will have leakage. And, i hearted chemistry a lot. So the paper is quite okay for me. I'm confident enough to get an A for it. But on friday's paper 3 which i get tips for it, guess what, cause I'm too confident and I've confirmed I lost 17marks for that total 50makrs paper. wth!!

12th Sept, Tuesday
Biology makes me mad. At the previous exams, i studied i get 43%, i didn't study i get 34%. There's no much difference. So i made up my mind to not study this time and use those time for Physics. And, when i got the exam paper, omfg, damn regret. If i studied, i could get an A of it. So bloody easy lah.

13th Sept, Wednesday
Ah, it's my alwiz-get-an-A subject - Bahasa Cina! My essays were always so incredible.. haha! Teacher says my thinking is a bit different from my friends'. I usually wrote touched stories. This time is half-touched story gua. lol. cause the title is not suitable for too touched story. haha. 'zhong xue sheng ya, wo bu yan hui' translate ______ my secondary school life, i will never regret. I wrote bout School Band (sure must write de, de people is fun, the life is fun, the experience is fun, the memories are eminent!!), true friends, lil bit bout study lah. hehe. then i used the so famous quote of Xu Zhi Mo - qiao qiao de wo zou le, zheng ru wo qiao qiao de lai, wo hui yi hui yi xiu, bu dai zou yi pian yun cai! and i didn't know my bff, stupid chua jin wei uses the same quote. lol. luckily he used it at the beginning and we have different chinese teacher. if not, die die edi~

14th Sept, Thursday
Physics, the 1st subject i got tips for it. but it's a bit late when i get that tips so i don't have enough time to read all. Luckily i didn't aimed A of this subject. So, i wasn't so sad after that. hah~

15th Sept, Friday
Paper 3 for Chemistry n Physics. At 1st, we need to understand altogether more than 50 experiments before exams. But since we have very very very very very trustable tips, so we juz need to understand bout 5 experiments. opps.. is memorize those 5. ya know when u hv trustable tips, u'll feel confident and you won't really read the instruction during exam and start to write after get the paper. 1st i thought i'm the only one, but khai wee and jin wei did the same mistakes. haha. so we loses 17% for de experiment part in chemistry paper. lol.

16th & 17th Sept, Saturday & Sunday
Weekends are for to relax and wasting our so precious time and killing our own life. i've lots of plan to study at late evening on friday. i intended to understand everything bout math on saturday and study sejarah form 5 on sunday. guess what?! i wasted sooooooooooo much time on hanging around. Just hanging around although i don't have big house. and, on sunday evening i still havent start my form 5 math. fair. and my friends said for the 1st time they heard math subject need to burn midnight oil. lol. i study math until 4.30 in the morning. and juz forget bout sejarah. lol.

18th Sept, Monday
1st~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Wee Chong. i didn't forget it. sorry for not wishing u that day. sorry sorry, exams made me mad. okay okay, math paper. luckily Jul taught me the rest of form 5 syllabus that i haven't covered up. Thanks~ i'm confident in math now. lol.

19th Sept, Tuesday
i stayed at home today cause i dropped add math for spm. and, i've made the wrong decision to stay at home. ah, home is the best place to self-degrade. lol. 2day i plan to study the rest of my form 5 sejarah. same as the weekends, i slept more than anything else. lol. and FORM 5 SEJARAH?!.. duh!!

20th Sept, Wednesday
biology paper 3. bayo bayo~ can pass gua.. i memorized the very-blur-experiments without understand it. Good~ i don't know what i've wrote during exams. hope for pass..80/200 not that hard to score right?!

21th Sept, Thursday
BM~ the 1st PPD trial paper. almost everyone in the school get the wrong tips. we got the JPS paper's tips. Luckily the day before see bee told me not to trust that tips that much. for paper 1, don't know why, everytime for bm and english essays i can't do well during exams. just can't think of any points to write and elaborate. i juz wrote 2 and a half pages for the long essay. my friends they wrote at least 4 pages for that stupid essay. God Bless Me! i just need a B for this paper. plz help me~as for paper 2, lagi teruk!! 6 of that bina ayat, i don't even know one. the tatabahasa part, i don't even know what it ayat songsang. die die, 12marks just fly away like that. the most happy part is the peribahasa and novel part. i wrote a lot. lol.

22th Sept, Friday
Sejarah.. i got more than 5 sets of tips before that. and, i don't know which to trust. so i trusted Sivakumar's tips. and i regretted. i got a tips which was the same as exam's. wholly same. stupid Jul ask me don't trust that. stupid stupid stupid. i aimed A for this subject lah.. now B4 also can't score i think. Gosh!! Hey Jul, u give me the wrong tips ler.. the so-called 2 french kiss forget bout it la k?!.. plz..

23th Sept, Saturday
means today lar.. i.. i.... i..... juz woke up and sit in front of the pc n start writing my journal for the past 2 weeks.. haha.. i plan to shop this weekend. cause i nearly died lack of fresh air.. and for so long i didn't buy any things edi. i wanna shop!!!!~

xoxo.

Friday, September 7, 2007

blog. again.

i blogged before. in msn space, in blogger too. too long time ago. i deleted myspace because it's too public. lol. my ex-blogger i forget my sign-in name and password. duh!!.. okay. i suffered from amnesia. (mr. Gerald says so! lol!) what make me blog again, i don't really know, don't care to know too. haha. at 1st i tend to create this blog after spm trials, but i can't wait until then. impatient me gaga.. gonna change the templates after trials i think.. juz think~

woof~

okay. spm trial started yesterday. my very very very important exam. coz i gonna register for college january intake next year. cheers~ but what get me really mad is i couldn't concentrate in revisions, opps.. is study i think.. juz keep playing, sleeping, hanging around.. oh gosh! someone, HELP!!!.. motivate me please~

yesterday EST paper, i was struggling on paper 1. omfg.. potable water = good drinking water = drinkable water. n i mess it up. i thought potable water and good drinking water are not the same. what so stupid is everything is explained in the given points. and i just used up so much time thinking WHAT THE HELL IS POTABLE WATER!!!.. kinda stupid. n i had no enough time to finish up all and check what i've wrote. stupid stupid stupid.

next week schedule lagi teruk. all three science subject. i tend to drop my bio paper this trial. but hope my parents agree lah. then i have more time to study bloody physics. god bless me. i aimed 4a's only. bt i hope to get 6a's. lol. bless me everyone.

xoxo.